my life as so many things..

day two CAMERON HIGHLANDSS!!

2011-09-27T02:49:00.000-07:00

my favourite place in the world!!

2011-09-27T01:33:00.000-07:00

i love Malaysia :D
it's been almost two weeks since i last went to cameron.
it is one of the most enchanting place in the world.
a lil mix of modern and western culture,

the beautiful morning sun

jer w me glasses,(halfway up cameron)

esther choy

AVANT CHOCOLATE!! where it all begins :)

loving the wind

my mom..

OMF building (inside)

awesome lights :D

star socks :D

me bro:D

twying a heel stretch

me and bro in the OMF garden

jer trying to shuffle

OWLING

plank-ing :D

swing

2011-09-27T00:33:00.000-07:00

i wanna be this happy everyday so that i don't have to have pimples, or wrinkles.. :(

tired :(

2011-09-27T00:30:00.000-07:00

it's been a really really messed up week..
7 days of working, 7 days of sleeping,
and the teachers just can't stop complianing,
there just some old people , with some really old thinking,
la la la, watever, la la la it doesn't matter,
la la la , oh well, la la la.

staying in the english lab is fun and all, but the work load is AWESOMELY HEAVY!!!
at least by the end of this week i can finally take a breather and dunk myself back into the books..

form 5's grad nite
it's been really fun,
me, kah wei, kai yun, tsu ning, rachel, jeff, gee thek, and zai heng , opps, and yih hern..
i'm seriously sick of hearing korean songs but i guess the company w them is awesome
really gott astart studying now..
i told myself i wasn't gonna take B for an answer, well, you know what,
i'll just score A's and A-
i just wanna prove to them teachers that we know how to manage our time
we can be both active, and smart.
i dun get why teachers just love to pester us with being in class.
it's not like we CAN do anything.
(except sleeping, maybe : /)
but it's so much fun doing this, you can get a first hand experice at such a young age at event managing,
and you get to learn.
learning, as in, like what to do next time, where to get your things,
how to count your cost,
and just basically how to handle your time.
in class, i learn to nod at every teacher,
and waste trees.

itching to sew

2011-09-14T22:45:00.000-07:00

been reading loads of sewin blog and i'm seriously inspired..

wonder if i could just stop everything i'm doing just to do something..

i ddi say that about cooking,

but fashion is different,

everything that's old could be made new,

and everything that's new may just seem old.

well..really don't know whatado...

CAMERON TOMORROW!! can't seriously wait..

so so so excited!! ^^

that's all i gotta say..

gonna sew a messenger bag now ! :D

2011-08-02T22:53:00.000-07:00

it's been awesome in school..

tiring one too

my congratz go out to joshua balachandran,

he got his scholarship to america!!

WOOTS!!

and other than that,

it's been preety normal,

i'll skip the everyday go to school and start doing homewrok rant

and go the interesting stuff..

yday kah wei cam to my house,

fed her,

suprised to see her eat!! 0.0

gotta start preparing more for her!!

she's only 40+ kg and she eats more, what's the happening man!!

cf was awesome,

finally got a pstor, THANK GOD!!

couldn't do /continue this alone

no bc class tomorrow!!

living the dream now!!

exams next week,r yee coming back next week,

theory exam!!

somebody shoot me please.

and the form 5 graduation!!

dear GOD, please hold me up,

i just might collapse..

anyhow,

it's cool that we get to organize,

me, kah wei, kai yun, tsu ning, rachel,qian nee, zai heng,gee thek, yi hern, bryan lai, and jeff

the fun part's getting to know each other, stress with each other, and hope we still live ry??

btw, was checking the american's prom nights,

and i'm SHOCKED!!

i'm like whoa!!

there's 16/17??

they look like they're 20!!

imagine if i were to go there for a transfer proram when i'm 18,

i'd probably look like i'm 15!!

the disadvantages of being short.. : /

physics is still a pain, thank GOD john is there to help,

thanks to evi, my add maths has improved,

and also to pn low, i'm staring to like chem! :D

was watching this awesome vid that says chemical party..

sooooo funnneh!!

anyhow,

still loving my family,

my bro especially,

been growing alot coser to him,

but we still do the occasional hit -each-other-on-the-back-in-a-not-playful-way-thing.

can't wait for t.esther's wedding, been spending time with my old pals a lot too!!

Han suyin, seirra,shenna, shaun, cindy, eliz...

why isn't life simpler??

2011-08-02T22:42:00.000-07:00

was curious today, well..just now actually,
so i thought i'd do a lil research..
everyone knows how i love sejarah(a.k.a. history)
but at this point,
i'm not so sure what our syllbous is trying to tell us,
we're currently learning about the history of islam.
i mean, isn't it a lil propa-gandict??
it's telling us like he's this awesome guy bla blah blah,
i wouldn't deny it..
but going to the extent of using up half the text book is wow..
not being obvious enough for us?

anyways, back to my research,
was looking through nabi muhhammad;s wikipedia,
when i decided to look for something else..
googled occult symbols and it gave me one VERY VERY LOOOOONG list
for some i just couldn't help but laugh..
a circle???
come on,
it's just a friggin shape!!!
can't ppl just take things literally for once??
yes, put in some words, make it sound round-ish and it may mean somethng else..
but ppl today take things to complex-ly..
come things are meant to be overlooked so that we don't get a head-ache,
or a heart attack.. 0.0

just another day

2011-07-20T02:39:00.001-07:00

i wanna just dream and never wake up,

eat and never grow fat,

read and never grow old,

write and never go weary,

love and never grow tired

~poems by stephanie yap .

teehee!!

put on your friendshipp bracelets!!

2011-07-18T23:25:00.000-07:00

friends are the only people you build your life on,

whether it's good or bad,

they are the ones who make you YOU today.

well, apart from your parents that is..

we spend most of our days in school,

and we as humans have the need to socialize,

so do something nice for your friends today,

you know if they'll still be here tomorrow.

a beautiful poem~ by kandee the make up artist

2011-07-18T23:02:00.000-07:00

EVERYONE FEELS THIS...you are NOT alone!

After leaving Disneyland for my birthday...I had to deal with a phone call that really made my heart just feel like it fell to the floor.

I could've easily let depression set up a "depression picnic" in my heart...but I didn't.

When I got home I wasn't feeling well.

Yesterday I was overwhelmed with the amount of work I had to do, I had a sea of pages and pages of emails to go through and many make-up job offers for me to get back to people about.

Then last night I got news that one of our family friends had died yesterday...

He not only lived an incredible life, so interesting and unbelievable that they had been working on making a movie about his life, but above all things he loved God more than anything and bravely told some of the toughest people about how God could change their lives and fill them with more hope and love than they've ever felt.

I will be sad that he is no longer on this Earth with his huge heart...

but I am so glad he is in Heaven with the Lord...out of all the extreme physical pain he was dealing with for years.

Life is full of hurdles of difficulty...

we will neve have a life free of problems and hurt.

But we can grow wisdom to deal with the problems...

and grow more grace, mercy, and larger hearts to deal with the pain.

You've probably heard the saying:

"you can grow bitter or you can grow better"...

Well, some of the most incredible people I've ever known are the ones who have been through the toughest things.
They didn't let life hard or painful things make them bitter...it actually made them better,

develop more character and strength.

I couldn't get through anything without having God in my life...I asked the Lord to come into my heart when I was little...and he has been there to lift me up when I was down...

when life gets to be too much...

He says he will take all our troubles and pain and will fill our hearts with joy...

he will give us peace that doesn't make sense to the rest of the world in times of trouble and heartache.

Nothing else, no self help book no funny video, no picture of a kitten...could make my heart feel joy like what God can do. I just want everyone to know that asks me, "how are you so happy?"...to know the answer. It's the joy of the Lord in my heart, because my life is not perfect, and it's not my life that makes me happy...it's God.

I pray that if you are feeling alone, depressed, sad, hopeless, frustrated, hurt, that no one understands you, no one knows the hurt in your heart....

God knows...He made you, loves you, and knows you are amazing...

I stayed up til after 2 am trying to receive emails from people who said they needed to talk to me...

I am praying right now for one who didn't email me....

I pray you are still on this earth....I pray that God fills your heart with joy, that you feel what true love really feels like from God, who will never hurt you.

I pray for each one of you reading this...that God touches your heart in the most amazing way...that he lifts you up in spirit and in your heart and that you experience his love and joy. That is the only way that I have joy in my life!

"but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint" (Isaiah 40:31)

"May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit" (Romans 15:13)

I love and care about everyone's hurting hearts so much....I just want you to know what has gotten my heart through and answer to everyone, what makes me happy!

i know this does not belong to me, but i want all you readers of my blog out there to know that i mean all these words, every word-bit! :D

have a wonderful day :D

colourful pills

2011-07-15T00:12:00.000-07:00

urgh..
just when i thought this sickness was controllable,
it went uncontrallable!
didn't get much sleep last night,
around 11 am i went to sleep,
well, it was freakin cold..
i dunno why...
i put on my wool sweater,
wore long cotton pants..
even wore socks, and gloves to sleep..
but i still felt cold..
so i went to my room and on the fan..
weird..
still cold..
then i had the flu..
i felt dizzy and kept running to the tioilet.
my face was flushed and i just couldn't sleep.
at 1 am plus, mom came out and dad declared that i have a minor fever.
reading was 37.4

woke up around 12 again..
the only good thing i can say is that being sick sure takes a lot of weight off..
really had no appetite for anything..
missed cF :(
just ate a bun which ate halfway and threw away my last bite..
may have just developed bullimia..
:x
i now am sweating like cray..and i don't know why!!
yes it;s hot, but i NEVER sweat like this before just sitting down..
but it's good that' i'm sweatin..
cuz if not, i'd be keeping all the toxins inside ry??
oh wells,
was chatting with daniel ang on fb just now..
he's so different..
the last i remembered him was being a really naughty short guy, whoy suprise writes.
he lives in singapore now,
studying sports science,
and is very buff : 0
yea, he looks like one who works out a lot! XD
anyhow,
it was nice catching up with him ..
i'd really want to catch up with all my kidscat friends though..
just last week,
wait,
last LAST week,
i met up with julian,
if i'm not wrong, i'm older than him..
or izit the other way..
oh wells,
the only colour that registers to me when i think of him is blue now..
maybe cuz he's always wearing blue..
he's like the first white guy that speaks chnese..
wells, apart form joey and jeff who speaks chinses better than their english..XD
hope i get better soon..
can't stand being sick anymore!! D:

people out there who needs a lil self confidence

2011-07-14T06:58:00.000-07:00

STOP!!! carrying this sign around yo!!

be happy with who you are,

whether you are fun sized,

pimple-marked(like me)

dark skin or even

a nerd!

cheer up,

whatever the world says,

it's you who pushes you down..

no one else.

YOU MAKE THE CHOICE,

the change,

the difference around your community of ppl,

and when there's no one else to turn to,

LOOK TO HIM!

the one who created you, and the one who knows you best!

it's like a creator and the created,

we need the manual, but HE knows us inside out.

so cheer up, he knows the placs, and never EVER intended any downfall for you,

even if he did,

it meant that he has planned something greater for you in the future,

so see, you have a future to look to.. :D

so screwed up..

2011-07-14T06:50:00.001-07:00

it's weird, i know my title says screwed up..
well, in truth...
i really am not!
well, i am..
kinda, as in ..
i'm sick..
but this was prettty much my happiest day of the week!
didn't go school today,
gues my scam worked..
i WAS SICK!!
as in i knew i had sore throat..
just not bad enough to miss school,
so i ate durians!
almost 2 box worth of delicious, sweet, goey, creamY! durians..
YUM!!!
but i still drank buck loads of water..
like 3 litres..

this morning ...
well, there wasn't any morning since i practically
slept in bed till noon!
then i did some homeworks..
then go back to sleep..
i realized on my way to SIB that i ate practically nothing the whole day except for 2 slices of plain bread..
hmmm, weird, i don't hear my stomach grumbling...
anyhow..
can't wait for the weekends!!!
it's friday, friday..going to be saturday!!
everybody wating for next weekend, weekend! ~qoutes rebecca black.
anyhow, can't wait for tomorrow.
cross fingers for this saturday,
pray for me all you guys!
gonna have my bk quiz this week,
and even tho i don't have any plans to go for national,
(I CAN'T)
i just want to prove to myself that i know acts and luke well enough to score something :)
oh wells,
stef out!

~you can only be somebody when you decide to do something! :D

CHEER!!!

2011-07-11T23:21:00.000-07:00

another PJ with tsu ning and rachel!!

i love stretching with them..

tsu ning is currrently coach/pusher!! :D

learnt about hudler and toe touch today..really fun!!

note of improvement..: split is finally getting closer!! :D yay!!

anyhow, today was like any other day..boring, homework filled, and yes, i read gulp and gasp..it's hilarious..!!

but okay, the only thing hilarious was the part when crouch was sarcastic.

it went something like this

(the other guy: ..you kow what i would want after i rule king cross!?

crouch:to be more greedy?)

oh weells..

maybe i'm too stressed out, i'm laughing at the lamest of stories!! XD

oops drama ;x

can someone buy me a load of these!! :]

2011-07-11T23:17:00.000-07:00

mark and spencer's chocolate are like D BEST CHOCOLATE EVER!!!!

mind you, even better than famous amos' cookies.

the cookies are huge, well, like your typical chips more cookies only fatter and chewier!

it melts in your mouth as soon as you bite into it!!

gosh, i could gobble a whole roll in a day!!

it's that good,

so far it's the only thing that made me side track the calorific value contained in it..!!

gonna have one now!! XD

can somebody SAAAVVVVEVEEEE ME!!!

2011-07-11T23:04:00.000-07:00

hating school now~~

gosh, it's so tiring, just want the hol to start!!

having practices with suyin han, seira sheena and shaun roy and eliz!!

fun fun fun fun!!! XD
well, that was last sunday, which was the 10th if i'm wrong..

saw one of my friend in 1 u that day..

that guy who went to the same music class under the same teacher.

who happens to be older than me,

and a teacher now in my old school.

and a ty**cal chinese..
oh wells..==

raging hormones

2011-06-09T01:00:00.000-07:00

(jealousy btw, is not a good motivation for anything)

I HATE BEING JEALOUS!!!

GRR!!!!!!

well, i knwo ppl don't realise that they are,
but i do..
and i just hate taht guilt feeling when i am..
cuz i try to prove to my self that i am better..
ARGHH!! i look around and i'm like..
why is he so good at this..
why is she so awesome at that???
why ain't i that awesome??
well..
i'm praying hard that this insecre feeling would just go away..
it's really geetting on my nerves,,
why can't i just see something beautiful and say..whoa, that was awesome!!
and not feel anything??

if you're wondering why i posted this..
well, i was hearing a cover by two ppl
guy and girl,
not suprisingly hot..
and very NOT suprisingly,
talented..
in terms of vocal..

my head was like..
TURN IT OFF NOW!!!
and i was like o..okk..ay!!
i'm only left with a few options now..

1- i prove to myself that i can be better.

2-i try to forget it( half the times it fails)

3-sleep...ZZZ

XD
oh wells

hols!!

2011-06-09T00:42:00.000-07:00

HOLIDAY!!!
it's been one holiday for me..

don't even think i had one..

my routine consists of
wake up, work work work, sleep

arghhh!!!

i will never ever type..

that is law letters

for anyone ever again!!

it's so so so annoying!!

wells, to add the weight, i have folios coming up..

urgh!!!

why do we need projects for english and malays language????

gee...

finally finished reading American gods by neil gaiman

i would admit..

it was kinda of boring..
the only think i would looking forward now is

the next holidays..

guess i'm already embracing the work spirit eh??

adults go, loookign forward to the next weekend..

and by the end of teh next weekend, they say the same..

yikes..

feeling old now..

DRINKING ORANGE =D

2011-06-09T00:31:00.000-07:00

it's awesome!! try it!!

mom baught like 100 oranges and i'm like digging into it!!:p

EXAMS..HEADS ON!!!! legs gones, brains gone..XD

2011-05-17T23:14:00.000-07:00

DID you know?? apart from being a booster drink an being full of sugar, coke cleans toilet??!! just pour some and flush away!! don't forget to let it sit for a while...

here's a few things....

IT"s EXAM!!!!

superbly stressed out..

the only reason mtoday made me feel like blogging cuz A MIRACLE HAPPENED!!!!! *:D

history and maths test today...

history was suprisingly easy..

well, i can't really say supring since i DID study for almost 3 days..

and yea, maths was HARD!!!!

paper two was like a confucion test or something..

i didn't quite understand how the question made sense...

AND IT'S NOT JUST ME!!!

so yea,

miracle..

i prayed superbly hard this morning after i journal to stand by me when i did my test..

and yea, HE DID!!!

i was like, LORD, please please PREETTY PREEETTY PLEASE help me!!!

and yea, i can't believe i managed to finish those i initially left blank!!

and the funnnier part was the other *smarter students got the same answer!!!

WOO HOO!!!! THANKS YOU LORD!!!

yea, and i can realy see that kah wei is stressing out now..XD

i mean who wouldn't??

it's been a month siince we entered a class!!!

no, i wasn't playing truant/PONTENG..

so yea..

bio tomorrow..

GAMBATEH ALL!!!

peeps*

-having waltz mocha ice cream..still prefer rocky road..

-can't wait for my trip!!1 ARGHH!!

-and of course the outing with my besties-kah wei, qian nee, li yen, and whoever that was invited =D!!

-jade ramsey from house of anubis..i didn't know she had a twin..i guess i'm eitehr really out of date... and yea, in her sitcom with her sister nikita, she just gives me an impression..well, i know i'm not suppose to judge a book by it's cover or a nation by a peron(s)but yea, i feell like the ppl over there are so into the dating world...maybe over here it is too, but i probably haven't felt it :/ , that's what you get for being stuck under books for nearly a week!!! so yea, that's it for today, really hope to be able to blog more next weekk..

ALMOST FORGOT!!!

this saturday's my black belt grading..superb scaredness!! :/ i hope i can break those planks.. D:

that's all..

PEACE!! =D

UPDATE!!

2011-05-06T03:19:00.001-07:00

okay, maybe it's like a few weeks since i last posted??
but yea, A LOT HAPPENED!!!

i feel so breain dead!!..for some reason

(mind me, my speeling is awful, and i have no intentions to correct them.. :p)

IT"s MAY!!! well,

MSSD was last last last week..i think..sad case that we-the girls tteam didn't win..

felt bad, for two reasons..

1- we didn't win despite the hardcore trainings

2-i didn't get to play despite the hardcore trainings..

sad case

anyhow..that's gone, and now it's SPORTS DAY!!

superbly stressed out..

not for my house really...

but the mere fact that exam is the following week

0.0

i really sometimes wonder if the teacher who did this has feelings/consciouc/brains??

the ppl that are in the decor team won't i repeat WON'T get a chance to study!!!

it's stupid lar...

all day we're like working our butts off to do the banner/costtume/painints and what not and we won't get a chance to go back to class to revise our stuff with teachers!!!

(i seriously need to turn off my debate mode..)

the fun part was that i skipped chinese class for nearly a month..

really have no intentions of going back...so dead tired of listening to the chinses teacher..

okay, BACK to sports day..

my house is green btw..and it's name is LEDANG

(peeps: it's a mountain's name..

welll, i do really appreciate my houes name, cuz so far,

no one has anything to tease abou it..

like the blue house(KINABALU-kinaBULU)

or the yellow house(santubong)

if a typical chinses were to say this it would sound like san zhu dong it means mountain pig's hole

and our arch enemy (TAHAN) has the worst of it all!!

we're always saying TAHAN(endure) what???

then someone would pop in sand say

CONSTIPATION!!!

LOLX

okay, so it WAS a week before yesterday which was sports day and work started..

we ledangs gathered in the art room and started on the banners

our theme-PETER PAN..

at first i kinda thought it lame,

being that all the other teams were so futuristic and all like

red being the incREDibles

b;ue-bubles in hawaii (okay, not that futuristic..)

yellow being transformers

but you know what??
i was glad...

cuz i get to make the COSTUMES!!!

which was superbly stressing!!!
three nights in a row!!!
XD

peter pan's costumes was done on monday,

i THANK GOD cuz my aunt was here to help me figure out how to patch it all up..

gee thek(our mascot) tried it ON on tuesday and well, IT FIT!! WOOHOO!!

relieves.

one down 17+1 to go

tink's costume was a wee bit hard..

agian, all these can be seen in my fb profile!!

i really respect all fashion designers..

how they made a dress from scratch..

it's one tough job you know

i THANK GOD once again for making my model(ee-kuan) THIN

the costumes litreally made me work till the night..

as in.i come home..straight to work..

i wonder how i'll survive next time

0.0

she tried it ont he next day and WOHOO!!!

it fits..

i spent my entire day in school..

doing alterations for the dress like adding the sleeves an the down laces

which turned out better than i hoped for..

then came the hoodies!!

well, i wasn't feeling good the whole day..

had this massive headache that bugeed me

so i went home..
slept for nearly 3 hours..

the hoodies were relatively easy to make..

it was the fact that they were tiresome..you know..

you have to fold them and pin em up before you sew them..

otherwise the sewing machine might go out of line..

something like that.

i couldn't stop thinking about how my costumes would look like on my mascots the next day

(whish was AWESOME!!!! )

superb scaredness.!!!

the next day was awesome and tiring..and painfull...

i woke up realising that i hadn't finihs the sleeve for tinkerbell
(if you're wondering why tinkerbell has sleeve, it's because our school has a certain law for being too exposed..)and the hat for peter pan and the shoes..

stressed!!

and the worts part was i needed to be running the whole day!!!

which i was literally for the whole day..

thanks to SABRINA!!

i was able to finish the shoe IN THE BUS on the way to kelana jaya stadium

myfirst event was hurdles..

i'm GLAD someone pulled me out

then the next was 800 metres..

okay..me being there running THAT for the first time..

was a little intimidating..

my everywhere didn't hurt except for my throat..after mybe 300 metres or so.

every breathe that i drew in hurt..

like some knife being pulled down my throat..

THANK GOD..

i made it to the end..

in the third place!!!

yay to the green house!!!

right after that was the marching..

the incREDibles were really good,

with jia yuan being the robot who pops and locks

the blue..
i'm not sure what they did

and us..

okay, i did now know when they practised the act..

but it was awesome/
seeing my costumes put to play was like...

yes, yes, YES!!!!

and the plot was peter pan and tinkerbell was *flying* throught the lost boys, when they saw a pirate who shot peter pan down and was saved by tink's fairy dust..

which was incredibly cool!!

the yellows did a transformer theme as i mentioned..

it was quite cool to see the guy(mark) transform into a teeny winey small car in which my brother later on asked..

there was a car?? 0.0

then came all the uniforms ...

blahblahblha..

speech..speech..speecch..

then the race started!!

woohoo!!

took snaps with my creactions..

bragging mode now..

got ready for my first race 100m

wickty sprayed my hair a highlight green..

WHICH WAS AWESOME!!

and yea, i got third again..XD

my number : p1002

blahblahblah...

not sure what happened in between..

oh now i remember

i was trainng with shalinin for the baton pass behind the stadium when my half-broen shoes got caught in between a crack slit on the cement floor and

PLOP

i feel knee first on the floor//

yikes..

later yenling and jean came back

and we got ready to run..

amazingly/incredibly,

our team got first.

jean was the first runner, shal 2nd, yenling, 3rd and me last.

THANK GOD REALLY!!!!

i can't belive i could still run with a bruised knee..

well it didn't hurt that bad until later into the night..

then came the announcing of which house won..

drumrolls.....

...

....

AND LEDANG TAKES THE WIN!!
WOOHOO!!!

you know that sense of relieve?
i can't believe!1!

we wn...!!AGAIN!!

our 8th year in a row!!

okay,..

skip the part where we took pictures and go home..

had bk that night..

and helped out with the mother's day thing...

met loads of ppl

and yea i LAUGHED LIKE CRAZY!!!

as in, i laughed till nothing came out of my mouth..

well it's been a crazy day..

not going school tomorrow,

so i'll have a good rest !!

and the stupidest part is i have replacement school on saturday..

urghh..
hate having schools on saturday..

well..

loads of homework to catch up with..

loads of revisions to start with..

AHHH!!!!!

i want may to end like a snap!!

tilll the next time..

oh i missed out some other stuff..

i finally auditioned fo worship team for NST..

can't wait for training!!

and also the abrsm piano exam..

...

i think im gonna failll.

really epicly..

yikes..

there goes RM 300

sorry mom..

*a little work goes a long way :D -stef

The Eyes Have It: How Eye Contact Affects Our Brains

2011-04-18T00:25:00.000-07:00

There’s just something about prolonged eye contact that makes you feel vulnerable and exposed, as if the person looking into your eyes has access to your inner thoughts and feelings. A loved one’s lingering look can trigger a rush of happiness, but too much eye contact with an acquaintance or a stranger can bring on sudden discomfort. How, exactly, does eye contact affect us, anyway?

The Look of Love
That old adage about eyes’ being the window to our inner selves isn’t far from the truth. We can feign a frown or a smile, but it’s harder to fake expressions from the nose up. A true smile will produce crow’s feet, and someone who’s angry will narrow his eyes a bit, according to body-language experts. We learn a lot by looking into another person’s eyes, a behavior that’s ingrained in us from the start. As babies, we use adults’ gazes to figure out what’s worth our attention. In a 2002 study published in Developmental Psychology, researchers found that infants followed people’s eye direction, rather than head direction. Eye contact also helps our younger selves with memory recall. Researchers at MIT discovered that four-month-olds were more likely to recognize someone later if he or she made direct eye contact.

Use Eye Contact with Discretion
Eye contact can help us feel incredibly bonded or incredibly creeped out, depending on the person in view. It can make people more honest or make them appear more attractive. It has the power to enhance memory or cause us to forget everything else but the irises in front of us. Think of how many people we lock eyes with on a daily basis, be it at the grocery store or during a conversation with a coworker. It’s a wonder we can get anything done!

Luckily, there’s a social difference between strangers and loved ones when it comes to eye contact time limits. A certain amount is necessary for social functioning (how weird is it when the person you’re talking to refuses to look you in the eyes?), but anything more than that gets far too close for comfort. Though we do it all the time, eye contact is clearly one of the most intimate behaviors we engage in. We may look into people’s eyes throughout the day, but we reserve the prolonged kind of gazing for those we keep closest to our hearts.

Over time, we learn the difference between eye contact that makes our hearts flutter and eye contact that makes us cringe internally. Oxytocin, also known as the “love” or “cuddle” hormone, plays a big part in that. It’s a feel-good chemical that’s released when we feel bonded with someone, either emotionally or physically. The release is prompted by a warm hug, holding hands, falling in love, and so forth. A recent article in Biological Psychiatry postulated that oxytocin’s the reason we’re so inclined to make prolonged eye contact with our loved ones. And Dr. Kerstin Uväs-Moberg, the author of The Oxytocin Factor, believes that eye contact can bring about oxytocin release as well. Perhaps that’s why gazing into the eyes of someone you don’t feel emotionally close with can feel so wrong—the oxytocin might be there, but it’s not for the right reasons. It’s also why eye contact is deemed so essential for couples trying to reconnect. Looking deeply into each other’s eyes might rekindle forgotten feelings.

A Simple Gaze Inspires Complex Behaviors
Even if we don’t appreciate meaningful glances from just anybody, we do look favorably upon those who look directly at us. Researchers at the University of Aberdeen asked a group of people to look at two pictures of faces that were almost identical—the only difference was that one face had eyes looking away and the other’s eyes looked into the camera, mimicking eye contact. Whether the subjects smiled or looked disgusted didn’t make much difference; instead, men and women found the faces making eye contact most attractive and likable. According to the journal Nature, the brain’s reward center is activated when one makes eye contact with a good-looking person. Not only do we like looking at attractive people, but it makes us feel even better when they look our way.

Because eye contact is linked directly to our emotions, it has an effect on our behavior, too, as researchers at Tufts University proved. Study participants encountered a dime left in a phone booth and were approached by a random person claiming it as his or her own. When that person made eye contact with the participants, they were more likely to give back the dime. Having someone look directly at them made them more honest, probably because their inner thoughts—namely, “This dime isn’t mine”—seemed exposed.

Direct gazes also prompt increased participation from people in groups because it makes them feel more included. Dr. Roel Vertegaal, an expert on eye communication between humans, showed that the amount of eye contact a person received during a group conversation was proportional to how much he or she participated. Eye contact also forces us to pay attention more: a 2005 joint study by the University of Wolverhampton and the University of Stirling found that viewers remembered what a speaker said better if he looked directly into the camera at least 30 percent of the time.

This improved attention to detail shifts the other way if someone’s expected to answer a question while making eye contact with someone else, as evidenced by a University of Stirling study. Kids answered questions correctly only 50 percent of the time if they had to look at someone while doing it; their scores improved significantly when they were allowed to avert their gazes. Eye contact requires so much mental work that it becomes difficult to think of much else in the process. It’s easy when our eyes are focusing on someone we trust and love; we can concentrate solely on the adoration, instead of on keeping up a conversation. But most of us can’t even look into an acquaintance’s eyes and keep a straight face, let alone attempt complex problem solving.

vball tomorrwo!!!

2011-04-18T00:04:00.001-07:00

so very evry scared...going for MSSD vball tomorrow and hopefuly, we'll get into finals!! please dear LORD< give a chance xs

jerseys are awesome, wish i could upload them here : /

my chocolate fantasy!!!

2011-04-11T23:56:00.000-07:00

OKAy, now i'm wild,

just had a piece of chocolate..

ARGHHH!H!!!!

hyperb now!!

my chocolate fantasay...

would be a land in whish i live to be the eater and the maker..

and yet,

i can eat all i want,

never grow fat or get pimples..

simply put?

charlie and the chocolate factory, that's my fantasy.. ^^

heee..XD

blog peeps!!

2011-03-29T02:19:00.000-07:00

CHECK THEM OUT!!!

totally underestimated them.. :/ (guilty..)

this is YUNA!!!

and ZEE AVI!!

they have this 80's classy voice which is so so AWESOME!! and yea, i RELAX listening to the music!! XD .. well, if you're wondering what i do with the other musics??
i'd probably get angry, depressed, annnoyed or just angry :p..

AND...
I HAVE TO CHECK THESE MOVIES OUT!!

AKU MASIH DARA

legenda budak setan!!

yes, it may seem that i'm a chinese and i like watching malay movie..big deal. i'm STILL A MALAYSIAN!!

hmmmm...

2011-03-29T02:15:00.000-07:00

i just realized the girl part of me

(p.s., not seeking attention, just bored..and well, since no one really reads these posts..XD)

-i like knitting..

-i'm IN LOVE with cooking

-i kinda like wearing dress

-i'm kinda sick with the baggy outfits...

the boy that remains.

-i still <3 sports!

a looong LOOOONG WAY...back :D

2011-03-29T01:14:00.000-07:00

wel well!!

it's already been like 3 months since i last blogged!! well, partly cuz BLOGGER.COM (yes, blogger creators, if you are hearing me!) wouldn't let me post any pics up AT ALL!! and when i checked the site it said,

OKay, so let's wwrap up!!

DECEMBER

..hmmmm...i don't think i want to finish my diary on what happened in HK, just go to my fb page!! :D

p.s. NO SPAMMERS!!!

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1524128428

JANUARY

-AWESOME!

-FORM 4!! well, this is just gonna be fun ain't it?/

(did i mentioned that i got 7a's and C for CHINESE ???)

-pure science with cik suzi

-and would you beleive it?? i'm in the same class with all my awesome friends!! XD

-i'm STILL IN CHINESE D: apparently..well, i'd try hard then..

-BK IS AWESOME!!!!!( BIBLE KNOWLEDGE)

_road run!! got no.3!!

FEBRUARY!!

-mesyuarat agung..means ko-kurrikulmn meeting..something like that..

* vice pres for TAEKWANDO!!

*assistant editor of editorial's board

*schol team VBALL!!

-and here's the jaw dropping part..

i went to hk..AGAIN!! i wish i could just travel across malaysia first :(

-SIB's NST valentine's day!!!

* awesomest day!! i wore a dress..how wonderful??

*dinner with aunty agnes that night

MARCH

-EXAMS!! :s

-debate competition in KDU college

-CF event!

-GOT Into school team BADMINTON!!

-BECKY, SHAVVONNE and I DAY OUT!

-JAPAN incident... ([pray for them])

well, all in all, there's so many things lining up in APRIL.. like the sketsa(sketch), the vball and badminton tournament.. easter!! i think there were more events that i missed our like the time i met up with Kor or Shi ling;s party ..owh and the time (march holidays) that li yen, kah wei, and kai yun a\came over to my house... oh and rangers.. here's one of the hight lights..

we went WATER RAFTING!!!! it was awesome except for the part where i drank mouthfulls of water!! :0 oh and there's bryan lai's party... and of course our first release of the school's magazine!! :D and hari anugerah..which means award's day..well, nothing much to it, i skipped out right after i got my award to change and VBALL!! then of course the fun part was they provided free food..XD

coming up

-EASTER AUDITIONS!! hope i don't screw this one.. : /

-Baminton MSSD! fingers crossed..hope to train hard

-vball MSSD!! all the best to my team!

-Sketsa kerjaya.. hopefuly, as the crew we'd come out with a hilarious comedy that fits all the

nonsensical guidelines and rules that gave us not much space to move D ;

-ABRSM exam.. :s PLEASE DON"T FAIL!!!!

hope to do well

signing off ;)

stef :D

HK day 2

2010-12-19T19:39:00.000-08:00

7.00a.m.

woke up with the song rocketter-far east movement

last night was cold..

same as this morning

7.15a.m.

push-ups and sit-ups

7.30 a.m.

shower and change

8.00a.m.

read devotion,

wait for others to get changed

8.20a.m.

have my first breakfast

dim-sum

dad's late

heard they got lost..

9.00a.m.

came back

get ready to go shen zen-CHINA

10.00a.m.

on a train to lo wu,(boarderline of CHINA)

11.a.m

customs...blha blahblah

one of the offiers pulled me aside cause i didn't look like the person in the passport

went thru..

12.p.m.

mom did her curtains stuff.

*yawns*

for like nearly 2 hours!!

i sat there doing nothing!!!

2.45p.m.

HAD LUNCH..

SERIOUSLY NOT WORTH IT!!

32 RMB FOR A PLATE!

but it came with a set..

3.30p.m.

then we set off to shi jia zhi chuong

trranslate windows of the world..

i was pretty mad, and happy at the same time

i mean, look at it this way,

the lst time i was here,

i took at least a day to finish the whole track!!

and now we're going at 3 closing to four in the noon!!!

plus it's 140 RMB per head..

(seniors go in for free)

3.50p.m.

sat in a train

rephrase, stood in a train

4.00p.m.

the first thig you see is

the (immitation) glass pyramid of louvre, france

then, the troy horse...i think

and (immitations0 of greek and other naked statues..

the architechture work was fantastic..

but think iwould've enjoyed this if i wasn't being rushed!!

5.00p.m.

plus,

everyone was admiring the fish!!

i'm like dude, we're in a place showing WONDERs of the world,

and you're admiring how fat the fishes are??

come on!!

the worst part??

the sun set's early, that' means it'll be dark by 7

so we quicken our pace,

6.00p.m.

passing by niagra falls,

hawaii's volcano,

mount rushmore,

the grand canyon.

we misseed ASIA,

but who carres??

we're IN asia!!

7.30p.m.

back to the begginign where the eifel tower stands..

i climbed up with JEREMY

and i realized something..

7.40p.m.

i'm afarid of heights..

i didn't freaking know till i froze halfway!!

7.45p.m.

and when i was on the first layer..

my knees were buckling!!

the floor was made of metal,

and it was swaying with the wind and creaking ever so oftne..

then i remembred..

i'm in CHINA!!!

7.46p.m.

i just suddenly crouched and said to JEREMy,

i have a bad feeling, maybe we should just go back down..

i had imaginery thought of the floor giving way or the towel toppling down.

heights!!

eesh

7.48p.m.

went down without JEREMy..

my mom and dad went up..

and i stayed..

on the ground, the solid, STABLE ground

...which made sounds only if you stomp hard enough!!

7.50 p.m.

uncle rocky bought a corn cob for me 6 yuan,

that's a friggin 3 ringgit!!

and seriously..

it wasn't worth a rinngit!!

it was stale,

came with no butter or sugar..

and it was dry and seemingly unccooked.

wait, in m'sia, the uncooked corns tasted better!!

8.01p.m.

we wanted to watch a show

but it wasgoing to start around 8.30,

we all just thought,

we're not going to wait for another half and hour..

anyways..

8.15p.m.

we went out..

this was when we all just went crazy...

taking weird shots and all..

even my dad!!

mom too..

8.45p.m.

had dinner..

which was oh so filling..

and this was way better than lunch..

it costs lesser by like 100 rmb!!

9.30p.m.

went back..

i stood for like another 45 minutes .

took a bus from

10.5p.m.

the university(it's a station)

and back..

11.00p.m.

cousin caleb already slept cuz there's school still

pity..

i've been in holiday mood since 2 months ago and they're still studying..

pity..

12.00a.m.

shower..

it wasn't as cold..

12.40a.m.

slept close to 1..

NOT 1 a.m.

HK day 1

2010-12-19T19:10:00.001-08:00

8.45a.m.

woke up round 9 in my house..

still dazed..

argh my nails are ruined!!!

oh well,

facebook...

last-minute pack before leaving to 1u

12.00p.m.

*in 1u*

had little cravings for lunch while we -my gramps and bro wait for dad.

bought michael and carmen je(my sista who just happens to be cousin)

choc spoons :)

1.00p.m.

*dad comes*

1.30p.m.

eat subway..(awesome pick- subway melt!)

then leave by bus to airasia,sepang

by BUS :D

3.00p.m.

waited for a while..

check in stuff..

4.00p.m.

and our family's name was called out on the speaker..

oops..

i guess we were late..

i stiil don't understand why ppl can' t pronounce my name..

it's not hard.

ste-fer-nee!!

how hard's that??

4.10p.m.(just on time)

* on plane*

sat with Jer..

4.30p.m.

take off.

(BTW, me and my bro are really close even though we fight a lot..

hey, that's us how ppl noe each other more rite??)

5.00p.m.

had this really sucky lunch n board

rosemary chicken(taste nothing like rosemarry to me) with radish and vege..

the plus side??

it came with coffee which reduced the air-sickness

and ginger bread which i made a short clip of

the monster (me) who ate the gingerbread man..

i know it's lame..

hey, 3 hours on board..you gotta do something rite??

pics avaiable on my fb page :)

my profile :

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1524128428

6.00p.m.

then we watched edward scisoorhands on mom's notebook

then i wrote stuff for a while b4 touching down

7.00p.m.

p.s. landing is way better than flying off.. DUH~

7.15p.m.

go thru some customs

i ws so scared i won't be thru cuz i look complete different from my passport pic..

2008

i was rounder and had longer hair two years ago

2010

and now i'm with shorts boy cut and shharper chin.

phew got passs.

get luggage..

8.00p.m

go out, see uncle rocky and caleb(my cousin)

take a bus to ma-onn-shan and unpack..

9.30p.m.

had macD's for dinner Mc nuggets

(it was well around 10, so i think it's considered supper)

then mom and dad Jer went hotel, i went back to er yee's house

(er yee is chinese for 2nd aunt)

12.00 a.m.

shower

brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...........

water's fe-reeeeeeeeeez..zzzing!!!

1.00a.m.

sleep 'round 1 a.m.

i'm sleeping EARLY(in the morning) okay...XD

HK!!

2010-12-19T19:09:00.000-08:00

okay here's the plot for everyday..well, a mini-diary sota thing.

out with frens

2010-12-19T19:01:00.000-08:00

Finally december is here..'ve been waiting for this time since JANUARY!!

Shavonne and Becky(childhood bestties) came over..

we baked cookies!!!

choc-chips!!!

it was awesome!!

(e-mail me if you want it!!)

then we head out to mcd's///

then watched inception!!

it was fun having to be with them.

haven't done that since shavoone left for Singapore

and i left DUMC..

oh well, that's life

ain't it??

we earn something, we lose something :)

but the best part is we'll always remember :)

i'm not quite sure if that's a good thing really :0

haha, well, hmm, it's gonna be a new year

and i'm dying with thing-to-do for next year...!!

screams!!

well, at least have friends to be with :)

hee :)

hmmm, seems lighter

2010-12-12T22:24:00.000-08:00

it's been 3 weeks since i last cut my hair..
well, at first i figured it was a big mistake that i'd hav to live thru..
but, i realized,
whatever hair cut you get,
it will grow to make you look good in it..
i'm not saying i look good in anything..
maybe it's just cuz i'm used to it..
but it feels AWESOMEE!!!!
my head feels so light!!
like no weight pullling me down..
but i do wish i hjad locks again.
miss em..
ha, well, this is my last time i will cut..
maybe after spm i'll cut it again..
who knows..
up till then, i shall enjoy the wind in my hair..
and the schoching sun on my neck..

p.s., it does hurts since my neck was NEVER exposed to the sun..: /

In this whole world, someone may be better than you in every aspect, but In this whole world, there's only one ME in it.

2010-10-18T23:37:00.000-07:00

(comfort of the week)

PMR OVER!!!

2010-10-12T04:45:00.002-07:00

the tradition:

1 week before PMR,

what, PMR is next week???

1 day before PMR,

I gotta start studying...

2 hours before PMR,

(yawns) whoa, PMR today!!!

PMR week,

study study study..

During PMR,

this is suprisingly easy!!

ON the last day,

ah, crap, i've got Chinese tomorrow..

guess it ain't last day for me..

on Chinese exam...

great, spilled ink on my shoe :(

after chinese..

it's finally over??

walks down to the open hall.

(SCREAMS) and smiles widely!!

while walking home,

what to do next??

IT WAS AN ACCIDENT!!! SERIOUSLY!!!

2010-07-01T18:26:00.000-07:00

Again!!

It's not our fault!!

the ball just flew up..

a guy stoped it and left it rolling..

TOWARDS HER!!!

and it's not our problem that the guy couldn't catch it in time..

cuz the next minute..

she's yelling and screaming..

i mean..

the ball just TOUCHED her back..

and she starts marching towards us with a blackened face..

she threw a pen and paper on the floor asking everyone in the ring to write down their names

UNLESSS..

the person who was the last to kick the ball admits..

and you know what??

that guy..

no that coward!!!

ran away..

leaving us.

well, zai heng, weng kit and marcus admitted..

although they WEREN'T the ones who did..

for the sake of the whole 15++ ppl there,

they falsely admitted and hope the other teachers would talk sense.

and the thing was..

THAT TEACHER..NEVER TALKS SENSE>>

pn lau was talking to marcus and zai heng..

(she was the other teachers)

at least she talked sense

then THAT teacher came out from the room,

saw pn lau, and was a face full of smiles.

i clearly remembered 15 minutes ago

she was all flared out

ready to spit lava at ppl

and now.

she's smiling..

what kind of teacher gets angry in 3 seconds and cools off the next 3

MAN!!

she does not know how to keep it cool for once..

for me,

i couldn't run,

i would have liked to,

but i didn.t

cuz, i knew she recognize my face..

from the last incident..

and she would penalize me if i did run..

anyways..

at least in the end she let go..

clearly knowing that she couldn't have won

yea..

she threatened all of us that she would tell the pengetua..

i mean c'mon..

why would the BUSY pengetua want to bother with such a small matter..

i realize this teacher just can't accept a sorry

she won't really hear throughout the explanation..

she'd b thinking

you're at fault

i mean..

that's what i think..

cuz it's so obvious on her face..

it's a book that's open and glowing red!!!

man..

you've got to learn man..

thinks don't go out as planned sometimes..

we didn't want to shoot the ball there..

sorry..

THAT GUY SHO RAN AWAY didn't want to shoot the ball over there

moreover

the balll didn't flew directly at her..

it deflected.

rolled to her..

and touched her on the back..

nothing else.

THINK MAN!!

you're a TEACHER!!!

YOU SHOULD HAVE BETTER UNDERSTANDING!!

camp 5!!

2010-06-13T21:43:00.001-07:00

CAMP 5 WAS AWESOME!!
my arms feels like overstretched rubber bands..
yesterday-SUNDAY, went camp five with royal rangers
woke up round 9
went 1u round 10++
had breakfast round at burger king.

then camp 5!!!
put on harness and shoes(size 6^^)

warm up.

then onto the wall we go!!

went bouldering after that..
almost same, except no harness involved.
got a member's card!! AWESOME!!
went to see nany mcPhee...

my aim for PMR...(1)

2010-05-04T06:22:00.001-07:00

1.) AVATAR SERIES!!!!

sports day 2010

2010-04-13T23:46:00.000-07:00

7.00 oh goodness!!! we're late!! we're LATE!!! i rushed to wake my sleepy head brother who is runing, then again, maybe i shud let him sleep, then he won't be able to run fr saga-sorry tahan.. i NEED TO BE THERE EARLY!! i want to get some practice, dont want to look like a fool ltr..

rush rush rush!!! argh!!! forgot my freaking camera!! (the photos are not mine)

the hot sun was already up, making me sweat as soon as i stepped in the place. practice practice, practice..jeremy missed his 1500 race.. he would've win anyway..WHAT??? he said he was tired right after the 200 meter race!

here were the maskots.. as usual we won, not in perbarisan though
don't look at nick, look at the sheel, yea, ninja reptiia...LAME!!!

the red queen

the hawk king

AVATAR!!!

I WANT THIS WEEK TO BE OVER!!!!

2010-04-07T03:26:00.000-07:00

ARGHHH!!!!!! THERE"S sport's day!

then i neeed to pass up the stupid BM folio,

then they start giving us GEO folio,

and i'm not even done with SEJARAH!!!!

i can't wait for the weekends..

Keep your comments to yourself

2010-03-24T22:34:00.000-07:00

Words are Beautiful,

it has the power

to communicate with others

Words are Expressive

you entire anger can be expressed

with a whole word

Words are powerful

It cuts through the silence

and people's thoughts

Words are hurting

It slices a person apart

and stains your reputation

Word kills

with a few words of negativity,

you send someone to

the darkest place on earth

sometimes...very rare times

a little lie is worth telling

than a painful truth

think before you speak

you can't take them back,

however much times you'ved apologize

ANDATE RESOURCES

2010-03-11T00:19:00.000-08:00

today...

had a fun time...

in bestari school...

having done andatne works in bestari was..

AWESOME!!!!

i would really want to go back, but, due to my school, i can't go..

anyways..

i really really

LOVE IT!!!!!

I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT IT!!!

2010-02-24T23:10:00.000-08:00

what's it??

a school

and..

i'm jealous..

of??

my fren..

WhY??

I WANT TO GET IN!!

but??

it's expensive

which school??

rangitoto college..

i see...

i'm so in to it...

good for you...

I WANT SO TO GET IN!!!

!CRAP!!

2010-01-24T23:04:00.000-08:00

this is the 3rd week of 2010, and things are pretty...WRONG!!!!! i can't believe i got a letter! FROM THE SCHOOL!!!I didn't do no wrong, said 4 words(not four letteres) and i got it, i'm so fed up with trying to be a good student, i want a clean record, you rub a stain in, i want an 'a', you put a minus in..Crap lar! look at it this way..i've been a clean,spotless,non-disturbing,homework-finishing,quite,helping and earning-a-name-for-the-school kind of girl for the pass years..i really want to tell her i said my sorry that day..what else do you still want?? would you be happier if i left the school???

EVERY CLEAN STUDENTS DESERVES A 2ND CHANCE!!!!!!

What if..

2010-01-08T20:11:00.000-08:00

What if, everyone were special, everyone was famous, everyone was rich, kind and what not

no one would be left out

What if, this world had no sickness, no illness, no sadness

everyone would have been happy

What if, there was no war, ever before, no weapons were ever invented

we would be living in the stone ages

What if the answer to life was just about sharing

this world would have been filled with bridges(literally)

What if, everyone was blind(literally)

everyone would have been inspired to live a happy life

what if everyone were equally pretty/handsome and smart

this world wouldn't have anymore celebs or singers to admire or look up to

What if this world didn't know woh the real God was??

everyone would perish unknowingly

What I REALLY REALLY HATE BOUT TWILIGHT

2009-12-16T23:33:00.000-08:00

Its not that i hate the book or anything 'characters' in it, it just becomes SOOOO anoyying, when people would go, 'you know, he's my edward.' c'mon, what happened to 'he's my boyfriend??'
seriously, it bugs me socuz, you know, i's llike everywhere i go, edward, jacob,edward,jacob, IT"S FREAKING ANNOYING!!!!
SO, the next time you see me, you go and say, OMG< that guy is so hot, he's just lke edward, i would make puking faces in front of you!

2009-12-14T18:13:00.000-08:00

I am the person who goes to your school

I am the person who ain't that pretty

I am the person who is a bit heavy on the weight

I am the person who stutters when i talk

I am the person who does not have good grades

I am the person who reads in the corner every recess

But I am the person who is brave enough to wake up every morning

just to reapeat what i do everday

Fun facts bout me! :)

2009-12-07T20:48:00.000-08:00

so it's the holidays, and i have nothing MUCh to do, so i did a list of things that i didn't even know untill i checked out myself..

1.) i don't have any outside CD's,
that means all the cd's in my house are either piano(boring) or christian..so if you want to get me a cd, get me something that is not this two!! i have enuf already!

2.) I love cleaning the house
everytime i'm sad or mad, i'll just start cleaning, i dunno why..

3.)i say i hate music, but deeply, i love it
serious, serious love it..

4.) I hate having crushes
it's down right annoying

5.) and for most, I love singing
and i don't mean by the normal-sing in the shower kind-like, really, really i want to be proffesional in it....

SHOCKING????

so let's talk weekends....

2009-11-29T23:14:00.001-08:00

saturday....
MAN!!! it was tiring! swimming test..well, i would say i'm glad i went, (yay!!! passed a merit..halfway done with the gold.) and man it tiring..you, know howppl would say, donw't go to the deeper end..i don't know how to term the end, cuz, it wasn't the ending part that was deep, it was the middle part...like a valley underneath the pool! and so, swimming laps after laps..okay, so i'm not physically that fit...cuz, after each lap, i felt as if my whole and legs would collapse!! well, we all got burned, after 4 hours of swimming, what do you expect?? but, i'm just so glad i ain't the only girl there. my friend mei si was there, she was like a robot in water!!! she swam lap after lap, as if her breath was like still a thousand more gallons!! came home after that, was so tired i felt like collapsing..i was burned, my brother had the worstof it..so don't march up to him and give him a slap on the back...went to see the kidscat performance, excellent as ever..then went straight to chras... dinner, see death note..(IT WAS AWESOME) and then sleep...ZZZZZZzzz

last last friday..wait LAST FRIDAY!!!

2009-11-17T21:04:00.000-08:00

went to school, totally not regrettng it!, we had a PARTY!!! well, not my class, hemah class, but i had the oprtunity to join them!! awesomest man!! it was like so so so fun!! and well, loads and loads tto eat!!, after that, we played cards..XP, (those who are in my school, SHHHHH!!!) anyways..here are some pics...

a wish for al ya guys out there

2009-11-16T20:46:00.000-08:00

GOOD LUCK...spm draws nearer and nearer, and before you even know it, it's already 24 hours away..well, i hope all you form 5 ppl passs with flying colours and bring a good testimony back for those who are gona take the exam the next year!

one of my everyday devotions..take time to read for those of you who are christians.

2009-11-10T17:40:00.000-08:00

JUST SAY IT

My power works best in your weakness-2 Corinthians 12:9 (NLT)

Shawn panted heavily as he wiped the sweat from his face. It was obvious he was dissapointed and embarassed at the poor showing he had made while running the 4/40 relay in the high school competition.
"Man, that was lousy," you could hear him complain beneath his breath as he plopped down beside you after coming the fifth place. "i should have done a lot better than that."
Yeah, but you ran pretty hard out there, you think of your teammante's performance.You gave it your best
That's a very good response to someone's obvious failure. But don't just think it. Say it to him. The one thing he can really use right now is to be encouraged. And you're just the person for the job/
SOmetimes, things that seem to be the obstacles to us are simply opportunities for God to show us His love and faithfulness. God never requires that we be perfect. DOing our best is all He ever espects.
He knows there will be times when, after we've done our best, we will run out of steam-our streght weakens. It's in those times that God steps in to provide that extra nudge we need to make it through. His strenght, He says, is never failing. It's enough to get us through when our strenght is seemingly all used up.
When you feel you've given all you've got, and it was still not enouvh; pray and ask God to help you. He has all the strenght you need.

When we feel our weakest, God gives us his strenght to build on

D-WORST-DAY-EVER!!!!

2009-11-05T22:42:00.000-08:00

it's raining...the class people seem to have reacted to that, crying away, the moans and screams echoed through the class, i sat there, watching, wondering, what should i do...space out..

i can't believe it!! i came to school today..well, someone told me i better, so, i did, and guess what?? i got scold , i got bad resilts, and i ghad to look at ppl's face colour! man, then, there was this huge commotion going on in my class, in which i want to forget ASAP!! so, well, i just want to shut my ears and forget!! wished i haven't gone to school today.... anyways, i'm not gonna elaborate on what happened, but anyways, i bet things would go on better..i hope...i'm just stuck in the middle of two or three parties now..so, i'm deciding, i'm not gonna get involve, it's not my fault, i was sick yesterday, and still sick tody, so, i'm not bothering!!i don't care!! those of you who are invlove in this...a piece of advice!!

1.)think openly

2.)have a forgiving heart!

3.)don't think of revenge..

4.)it's not yours to judge

5.)what's done is done, so just forget!

i just hope my class does not fall apart, with the innocent still stretching in the middle...a-hem, I'M IN THE MIDDLE!!!

btw..i'm not anyone emo..haha, it's just something i found out wuite cool, so i just wrote it down..

2009-11-04T22:06:00.000-08:00

"To love someone who can never love you back is like striving to get a perfect score in a non-recorded exam."

a few quiestions..

2009-11-01T00:55:00.000-07:00

before i ask anything...i'm just gonna say...YAY!!!!! I'M SICK AGAIN!!! you know what that means?? NO SCHOOL!!!!!! haha, i know, i try to make evry bad situation an enjoyable one, say, what happens if i drop my phone in the river get a NEW phone!!! haha, anyways, here are the few questions that i seriously need an answer..

1.) what do boys normally like for their birthday/christmas presents??

seriously, i can't figure this out!!

2.) can someone tell me what is the system of goverment in malaysia??

i suck in sivik, i sleep most of the time during that period XP

3.) how the heck do i get something off my head??

like say, if there's this really annoying song stuck in my head, how do i remove it??

4.)how do i make my blog MORE interesting??

well, i'd like to take it to the next level..

5.)what stories should i write??
i can write action, adventurous, creepy,gorry,inspiring,sad(i'm not that good at romance)

CALVARY CARNIVAL!!!

2009-10-30T06:46:00.000-07:00

I SO WANT TO GO!! I SO SO SO WANT TO GO!!!!

yep! it's tomorrow..(yes,yes, i'm gonna miss the fun...again..cryT.T) why why why???? i so so want to go..better yet, i WANT to HELP OUT!!! man, i just so wish sumtimes my mum wud let me go alone with carmen je..haiz..her brain is just so unique at times...anyways.for those who wants to go, please do go and tell me how it was..it's gonna happen in bukit jalil, from morning till evening, yes, it's free to go IN, so just go in, then BUY your tickets to play games(teehee) anyways, i heard this year is gonna be very very very fun, so do go and enjoy the carnival.

a few words...

2009-10-29T23:49:00.000-07:00

EXAMS OVER!!!! IT"S OVER OVER OVER!!!!! FINALLY! ah-now i done it, i finally screamed in my blog..

2nd THANKS ALL YOU GUYS WHO HELPED ME WIF MY BLOG...that is SAMANTHA K, SARA-ANN, QIAN NEE, AnD GAB WONG, IF I MISSED YOU<>

3rd I HAD A GREAT LUNCH WITH CARMEN+MICHAEL!

not my day

2009-09-15T00:44:00.000-07:00

URGH!!! why is he such a ....! i just can't stad ppl who likes picking friedns...(racist), or maybe put it this way, he just likes talking to the known group?? and you know what's the worst part?? he's a CHRISTIAN!! wow could he?? he's suppose to be a ROLE-MODEL!! but he definitely ain't! school was as boring as usual...and well.yea, it's just so NOT MY DAY!! sumtimes i seriously have to press the ignore button..i noe i have to..i probably shud tel my self..fine..who cares anyway, but it's just so hard to ust let go..if he weren't a christian..i'd probably forgotten long long ago!! BUT HE AIN'T!! i'm so pissed...but then..as i walked home, smokes coming out of my ears and the fire on my head still burning wildly, a song ppped into my head.. 'i cast all my cares...it instantly cooled down the exploding level..and well..i just have to learn to cool it..

i cast all my cares upon you,

i lay all of my burdens,

down at your feet,

at any time, i dunno,

wha-at to do,

i will cast all my cares upon you,...

'coughcoughjoeycoughcough'

what i did on my birthdeay.

2009-08-27T21:44:00.000-07:00

yes..my birthday was a week ago...more likely 5 days ago..i spent probably my birthday in the forest..well..i celebrated 2 days lar..

FRIDAY>>>

okay..first we went to watch the proposal..funny lar wei!! those of you who serious need a laugh..go watch this..it's super funnnY!! then we went for MCD..my birthday..in advance..thanks aunty agnes so much!! she bought m a secret recipe cake!!

thanks aunty agnes!!

we all had a fun time

SUNDAY>>>

haiz..it was like any other day..except..unlike last year..10 ppl wiched me happy birthday!! and this year i woke up with a pillow in my head( last year, i woke up withbruises and aches all over my body!- congkak camp..no one excaept my family wished me hapy birthday..including teacher william!!) and this time.everyone friends remembered my birthday while my parents and bro didn't..church was normal..then went home..got ready for the hike!! and we went.. the hike was normal only that C.kah leong was the real pesky bug that kept annoying me!! i like being at the end of the line..nobody hurrying me(except for c.kah leong!!) and well..half way through ppl fall behind and we talked..there was joshua lau, william, and my bro..wait i think i went front cuz i couldn't stand having tio wait for the other girls that needed rest every so often!! but they'll learn... after the hike, we went to the nearby park, had a drink ad rested.. parade..C. kah leong made everyone there(rangers only of course) sing me a birrthdayy song..how 'sweet' of him..

then we went our separate ways..me and bro..back to cheras..aunt made crab and my favourite herbal jelly that night..and then home..all in all i had fun, bbut i was half-worried..ABRSM coming up..that is today..!! alright..have to chiao now..bye

photographs by: me and dad!

2009-08-17T23:58:00.000-07:00

Recap...lats see..
last saturday..didn't go taekwando...haiz.so were the next 4 satursays..so so so so sian...then last sunday..Had to skip rangers....cry...this week..Exam...next week Piano exam...panic!!!!
at least there were good news..CAMP!!!!!! we're going to benotng pahng on the 30-31st of august..and this sunday's MY BIRTHDAY!!! now..i'm struin sejarah...so hard to understand since its in bm,..why can't it be in english?? at least i would have liked it..today had jkh, seni and sivik exam..dang..sivik ws so hard!! it was like goverment and blah blah....so hard!! then seni..easy..kh..easier then the last one.. today, my fen, farhanna, and farzannah asked me if i wanted to join taekwanodo..!! of course!!! i so want in, but, i kinda feel...odd, considering all the ones going for tornament are black belt holder, and i'm the...i'm just kinda scared ppl look down on me..well.. got to practise real hard from now..no escuse..!!

HELP!@!!!!

2009-08-13T00:54:00.000-07:00

okay..seriously, i need help on my blog...LOTS of HELP!!!! i don't know how to erm..how shud i put it...make my blog interesting....yea..i dunno how to add links..i dunno how to put chat boxes, and i dunno how to chabnge my title..the starting a blog thingy..yea..i dunno how to like er...add pics in it...plz...can anyone help me!!!!

Saturday at last

2009-07-17T21:52:00.000-07:00

i'm at the 5th!!oh yea..there's no brown in the place i learn..it's replaced with red.

that was one hairy caterpillar!!!

ha..its finally saturday!!the busy week was sseriously pressuring..yaya..! i got my blue tip..yes..it's still very low..but soon enuf i know i'm going to be a proud black belt holder!! anyways..came back..shower..mop the floor...ranger work..
I tell you..killing bugs are easy if you don't have a heart! but it was grusome.i didn't know how..i had to collect samples for ranger project. the ants..rice weevil, and the moth was easy..but the catterpillar(moth) was uggghhh!!..it was hairy, white..with yellow dots..!! yuck!! i cought it..then my first go, i flattened it..not so hard, but it lived so i flattened it..second time..harder..yea..i ws dead alrite.. and hw?? (flat lar) and it spat it's intestine out! it was yellow in color..you know hw disgusting that is??? and when i tried picking it up....it clung on to the tissue paper...eeeewwwww...! i felt ticklish all over...so i used a scisors to seperate it...imgine just cutting out mini intestines...yuck..and then i squaseh ants...they were easy..way to easy (exept the part where they kept running!) then file them...as in like put them in plastic bags and plaster them onto a papre!! hmm..i think i still need 6 more bugs...gosh..this is going to be the worst day ever!! killing ain't my thing..except if they offend me(you know...climbing onto your body..dropping into your hair..yea..those are what i call offend!!)

2009-05-20T23:31:00.000-07:00

here's a recap for today and yesterday....wednesday....pj exam...wonder why no one's reading for it?? ok, maybe it's not important, but so what? it's still an exam...i'd rather not fail in anything..one thing they forgot is that if they fail, they'll get a big red mark in their report cards.....haha...schooll ended..
next day.....
BM BM BM BM BM !!! I HATE BM! it's so hard! plus, i mean, i'm so bad at it! i think i would fail this time, duh, although i was prepared, but well, i couldn't possibly memorize a whole esay, and one of the questions were from my exercise book, why didn't anyone tell me?? (P.s.-everyone has that excercise book) and well, tembak aje lar! dang la, this time sure to fail, pemahaman was so freaking hard! AND lst but not least maths, paper 2, it wasn't easy, but it wasn't THAT hard either....it was okay, except that the second last question, i forgot the formula, and i passed it up blank! can u believe it blank...i so hate ratios...it's so very boring, and it's so very hard, i don't know why at one point of time, i think a few weeks ago, when i just got the hang of it, i really liked it, i mean duh, once you get the hang of something, you would deffinitely like it, happens all the time(especially in maths)i forgot the part where it says,5 parts represent 78 and then divide it, and then i could have got the answer! no matter, no need to cry over silled milk, at least tomorrow's exam should be easy, of course! we're allowed to use the calculator! but i sure hope i can finish in time....tomorow's english test, should be easy...just remember to read the literature part...why on earth do we have to do phantom of the opera?? it's so boring, and well, robinson crusoe seemed like a nicer novel, and hopefully a longer one, that isn't cut down to so many pieces! need to finish writting a story, need to edit another story, and then there's need to practise piano, finish Rr stuff, then revise english(aiya, sap sap sui la) then oh yes, i forgotten to mention, few days b4 today, i found out that i got distinction for my AbrSm exam!^^ so happpy! Ms. teh even bought us a big box of big apple donuts!!!!

THANK YOU SO MUCH MS.TEH....yea, it's true, she helped me a lot, not forgetting god, he is gracius, thank you LORD!!!!!Camporama coming,,,i'm so excited, and i'm so very scared....

sports day...so veli boring!!!!

2009-05-06T22:39:00.000-07:00

sports day...so regret coming...(yes,yes, i've decided to go to that stuffy old stadium)
woke up not that bright, but very early(6.10) and full of energy.
the trip from school to the stadium was so pressuring...i had to sit beside a teacher. Xp . by then the sun had already climb to full height in the sky. wearing the taekwando uniforms wasn't a good idea. it was so very hot!!! i guess, everthing comes with a price...haha.. i liked being a part of the presentation, cuz, it gave me a feeling that i belonged somewhere....and well, i won't have to wonder all around the stadium to find my friends..and the best parts was, I GET TO WEAR BLACK BELTS!!!( too bad it wasn't mine...) but that feeling didn't last as long as i thought..
it started out with the marchings of some uniforms and the houses, saga.waja.wira.rusa. the 1500 race, 800 race, 400 race.... GO WAJA!!!!(green team) hten they paused for a break. and now would be our turn( silat gaya, wushu dau and taekwando ) to do their presentation. it started well, but i screwed up a bit, and then i guess, the crowd wasn't cheering for us, more like for the silat gaya ppl....but then it ended, days and days of practise, was finaly finished, and i just felt as if, well, there won't be any other ways that i would able to feel just like now, wanted, involved, (i won't say importatn,, ppl would think i'm selfish!) then, we when back to the backstage, and then i went my way.... i was a nobody again..walking round looking for my friends...so not going to stick around here!!!home..sounds just as comforting..outside the stadium i met my friends qian nee and ee-leen. at least they were still hanging around, duh...they were prefects, smart of them...they have to do all the work! lol,,,then, my mom came, i promised ee-leen to revise with her some taekwando moves tomorrow...

join and go to that stuffy old staium or stay at my nice home....

2009-04-29T00:34:00.000-07:00

wednessday..it was a nice day..thank god so much it rained in the afternnon...
morning..happy...cuz, i've got my trophies!! finaly... a gold for science quiz and a silver for teaching aid competitions...thank god again...embarrasing?? let's see, i didn't know that we were suppose to run today..and the thing was i forgotten to bring my track bottom and sports shirt! gosh, i could've run, but i still though, nahhhh...who cares about sports day?? if i don't join anything, maybe i can skip school next thursday! yea, i'm going with that plan...Buuuuuttt...i was well, invited to join the Taekwando Pembarisan......i want to go same time i'd rather stay home...i like taekwando a lot, but i hate going to that stuffy, hot, miserable stadium! so, what should i do?? i think i would not go, cuz, i'm seriously lazy..and i think i'll ask vicky if i'm really in first..

badminton tournament

2009-04-23T03:36:00.000-07:00

ughh...time, time, time..why can't it go faster?? okay so, pn.hasnida announced yesterday...esok ada badminton tournament untuk perempuan...singles and doubles...and that point, my heart nearly fell...what?? tomorrow?? i haven't been practising!!!! and so, well..that day(yesterday) went real slow..and this morning...man..i ws in no mood at all..it was such a hurry! i didn't finish packing cuz i ws at tuition till 10.. then when i came back i had to finish my sejarah notes..this morning..practically was used up to pack my stuff..i didn't even had time to eat breakfast... remember to bring my raquets..school was off in a flash..and i was seriously forgetful...i forgotten my darn raquets..i was totaly panicked..so well.. i tried loads of ways...banging on the doors..but no one came..so, my briliant fren(not sarcasticly) she took off 3 glass slides from the window and she clambered in!! wow, she probably make a good crook..and so in 5 minutes time i got my raquets back..i thanked her so much and well..she said she'd calculate with me nxt time..my stomach was growling..but, igmore,ignore...i had to buy a cube for my fren, rush to get my lunch(which never happened, cuz i had no time) my transport came and we set off to the complex...
man..that place was hot!! well..humid would be one of it's describtions..and, well..i practised with my shi fu wee z.y...he gave me tips, still i wasn't good at controlling..i'm good at smash ball...and games without the freaking net... everyone started gathering..i was beggining to wonder why the boys were here..owh..boys, singles finals...adler vs. jun hong(lim)...wow, they were good...no they were awesome!! they had loads of fast balls and everytime, jun hong smashes, adler still found a way to return that ball back...but...no sooner, adler hit the ball too hard, letting jun hong score his last point..what can i say, they put up a good match..
girls turn..
first match..my stomach started to churn..(of course, i have stage fright..this would count as one too..)then..i was next..okay..no more butterflies in there...just a big stereo that kept vibrating..and somehow..that stopped my hunger...me vs. yong ee leen the girl who sits beside me in class.. man, she was good..or maybe it was me who just kept wobbling..seriously i ws shaking head to toe..especially at the dozen of eyes staring my way..as you all sould guess i lose.kimberly came in with v trailing behind her..they were up next..go kim! she was going against my classmate..yen ling...slomehow, i don't know who to support..i know i want yenling to win, so i just kept my nose under a book..phew..it's over and yenling won..the single matches went on..andgel ho kept playing...her opponents scored points whenever angel made a mistake..finals..yenling vs. angel..man, angel is no angel in badmnton..no offence..sure enough, angel won..by one point..one more point and yenling too could have won.. next doubles.. yenling needed time to rest, so the others went first, making us one step ahead, since, there were only 4 teams who signed up for the doubles... when yenling was done resting, we started playing...us(me and yenling) against, my frens, also classmates, chee teng and ee leen..we won..thanks to God....well duh, i prayed and after the first match(singles) i was kinda wondering if i shud still trust HIM..and well, i remembered this moto..win or lose, i MUST trust in him..and well i trusted that if it was his will for me to lose, then, i'll just have to deal with it..but i prayed hard.. prayed that i won't humiliate yenling..and sure enough..we won!! finals..it was hard...especially since our opponents were school teams..we lose, but i still thank god..we got 2nd place..hey not that bad wot..thanks god so much..one of my prayers answered... anyhow, that concludes today's activities and blog..more to come..so keep reading..
p.s. may have some errors cuz i didn't want to waste time just scrolling up and down